I’m a big lover of expecting the unexpected, I’ve made that fairly apparent at this stage! There’s a sort of underlying pleasure towards not expecting something to happen or occur. I say pleasure in this regard, well because I’ve only been accustomed to this feeling when experiencing a moment of non-expectation. It’s why I’m such a big advocate of seeking for the unexpected. However, today was very different. Let me explain.
Last week, I was giving great news all around. News of success. News of happiness. A step in the right direction. I had received a long awaited job offer, which I accepted quicker than Usain Bolt can win an Olympic 100m race. My pre-season athletics training was due to begin, something I had waited eagerly for and it was looking like my college problem was all but sorted. Everything that could have gone right, inevitably went in that very direction. I was staying in Ireland with everything after falling into place perfectly, apart from college accommodation which was seeming impossible to find. But that would have come in time! The definition of perfect was so closely related to my situation, until I got an email. An email that changed everything.
Oh, this email! How I wish I never recieved, saw or read it. The sheer elation I was feeling prior to this email was quickly changed to sheer disbelief and utter shock. Disbelief that the college was forcing me to go to Spain again. If I didn’t go, I would fall the year and have to repeat.They had decided to decline my appeal, out of nowhere really, only telling me a few days before Erasmus was due to start. The option to wait again for a reappeal was there, but in reality the chances of me getting this turned around were slim. To make matters worse, they told me that the majority of people who ask for an exemption, get it. Yet, they didn’t give it to me? Am I being Punk’d? Ashton Kutcher, wherever you’re hiding, please come out now!
Maybe it’s one of those situations where they have to pick a few people, no matter what their situation is, to decline because it makes their operation look more appropriate and professional. As opposed to literally everyone getting an exemption. Even if that was the case, why did they have to choose me! Especially when everything was after falling on a scrumptious plate for me. I genuinely thought my appeal was pretty decent, as far as the previous appeals I’ve heard of go. I supported my letters with documentation. Documentation from a professor in the actual college, letters from my work place, and yet the college decided to look past that all and still decline me.
I am a very positive person and always try to keep myself motivated, but it is times like these that I find it hard to break through that sadness barrier. Although, this is one of those heat of the moment situations, so I’m obviously going to be sad and disappointed. Once I have a day or two to cool down, I’ll be back into a positive mindframe. Looking for the best in the situation I’ve been handed. As ive said before, there are going to be bumps on the road. This is one of them. Is it going to stop me from driving forward? No. Is it a sucker punch? Yes.The best thing I can do right now is calm myself, and start to look at my options. I’m not one for panicking!
The worst part of this all is having to tell my friends, training group and workplace of my unfortunate situation. I was planning to get college accommodation with my friends. That’s over. Training was starting monday, with my goals and schedule set out for me. That’s over. I was about to begin work after finally getting a job. That’s over. I know they will all accept the situation I have been put in, but it doesn’t make it any easier. The job situation is the worst part by far. As you know, I had worked there before, and the manager was very kind to rehire me. He didn’t have to do that but he did. Now, I have to tell him I won’t be able to work. It’s not fair on him but it’s something I have to man up and talk about with him. I know he will accept my situation but that’s not the point.
So, the flight has been booked. Tomorrow I’m heading off to Tarragona for half a year. It’s not giving me a lot of time to prepare, but I have no option but to fly over tomorrow.Orientation is due to commence tomorrow and with college starting on Monday, I’ll need a few days to get settled in. As I write this post, I’m beginning to look at the positives. At the end of the day, I’m going to be living in sunny Spain again. I won’t have the training group I want at home, but I’m sure I’ll find another group here in Tarragona that train well. The job situation might actually be a lot easier to work out here also, seeing as I have endless amounts of experience teaching English. It’s not ideal but I need to make it work. I mean it will be a good experience, but with everything after falling into place at home it makes it that little bit harder to accept.
All I can say is, Onwards and Upwards!
Have you ever had a situation in your life that looked certain, but then changed all of a sudden? I’m intrigued to find out! Let me know in the comments below!
Make sure to check me out on Facebook and hit that like but if you enjoyed! ~~~ Build a Dean